Hi, I am Annette, and this is the second day I haven't called or sent messages to Dark Cat. Of course, he hasn't do it either! I can' t deny the fact that I wish he did it, and also I cannot deny that I have been thinking in him and giving myself explanations for his behavior. I recognize that there is a little spark of hope inside me, that he will be back and ask me forgiveness and show me repent......nahhhh, It is not going to happen!
Now, I know this beliefs are the root of my addiction and obsession, lighting up the spark in my mind and heart, that ties myself to this story.
Now I know that it never changes, it has been the same until now. It is an illegal relationship, and is not healthy at all for me.
How I feel? I am happy and motivated, because I have had the strenght to do not continue with the same habits as always at least for two days in a row. I compared today Monday, with other previous Monday, and I just made it!! Still there are a couple of hours to end the day, but for me is very important. I believe I have made the first step in front of my electric stairs, my monster....I am sure now I can, it will be painful, but I want to set me free!
Thanks GOD!
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