I decided to double check everything that I have thought and analyzed, about my known emotional dependency, and the battle I have been fighting since ...whenever against myself to eradicate it. I need to realize and internalize where I am now, and how I have arrived here. What I have now, where I am going and what I value the most. Changes have took place, and I can say proudly that all changes have been for good. FINALLY!!
But it is for critical relevancy, that I put the points over the i´s, first to recharge my batteries and stamina, because I know the battle still, secondly to fill my soul and heart with the good taste that comes from the satisfaction of having advanced in the right direction and leaving behind people and behaviors that did not contribute nothing to our personal and spiritual growth. GREAT!!
New things have arrived to my life, and the environment and the way these things have showed up are giving me a lesson of life, perseverance, patience and sanity. I have realized that it is not easy get separated from an unproductive relationship just to be alone, talking with your hand as I said! I need company, affect. I want to be loved and have the idea or illusion that someone is interested in me. I know it sounds as dependency, but the difference is that I am able to recognize now the difference between a unilateral relationship where I am the only one who cares! And the strength to set apart those who doesn't! Good for me, and now I give thanks to God, because I know, I feel his powerfull hand doing things in my life. Now I am in the way...yes I have won the battle, not the war, but I have the weapons!
